I AM RATTLED--RATTLED I AM

I AM SO RATTLED !

Well it has been a really POOPY day . I am angry, disgusted, RATTLED and just plain old everyday pissed. And at my own self !!! No one is harder on me then I am. Somewhere up here in my head I know there exsists a brain, except when it comes to blogging.

I don't usually spend a lot of time on the computer all at once. I usually take a peek in the morning at my blogger friends to see if they have posted , takes about a second. If they have I'll go back later when time permits to read their post, that's the longest time I spend on at one time. If it's someone I really like I may check back from time to time during the day to see what kind of comments they are getting, quick trips in and out. I use it as little breaks in between the drudgery of everyday chores.

But today I decided that I wanted to learn more about how to do things HEAVEN HELP ME ! like putting things on my side bar among other things. I spent three hours, three tiring boring hours reading and searching and looking. I read everything in bloggers help over and over, it scared me. I read some stuff someone had sent my daughter to help her, it scared me, then I took a look at my template and it scared the holy sh*t out of me. Everything is in code. It is all coded. I was so afraid of making a mistake, so afraid that I would mess something up on my template and not be able to fix it, that I ended up doing nothing. What a waste of time, I am so disappointed in me. I just don't seem to be able to get it.

This from a woman that when her son had to file for bankruptcy and found out that his attorney was taking his money and not doing a thing for him, (playing both sides of the fence), I went to the courthouse and asked if I could go upstairs and look at the law books. In a matter of hours I had the amunition I needed to confront his attorney with what needed to be done. So I went to the next meeting with him. I politely asked the attorney why we couldn't take advantage of this part of the bankruptcy laws and can we do such and such and his reply was a slow motion "Well I guess we can, I'll have to look it up, bla bla bla." But he did everything I had asked . When we left there my son said, "Mom I can't believe the way you handled that, you need to go to law school." Best compliment I've ever had. Beats me , I can understand law but I can't understand enough to learn to become a good blogger. I am so ashamed.

Well I'm not giving up, but it has been a long and tiring day so I'll just say good night for now.
I am so perklepsed. I need some Chee, I need some meditation.


Oh I know, I don't know how to spell perklepsed, neither do you (but if you do let me know it's my all time favorite word) anyway I couldn't find it in my dictionary and my librarian says if it's not in the dictionary , you can spell it anyway you want to.